i just. can’t deal with this anymore.  the anxiety and insomnia and nausea and headaches and vertigo and depression and pain of every possible description.  i can’t stand the thought of dealing with this for a week out of every four. i can’t do this. and i know the suicidal ideation is part of th bundle that i just want to stop. i dont know what to do. i dont want to feel like this. i know how to make it stop but no one will listen to me. what do i have to do? how do i convince them? why wont anyone listen?