Tag: AHSOKA

I’m on Twilight of the Apprentice and maaaaaan I already cried about Ahsoka twice tonight (i see the jedi are continuing their proud tradition of fucking with peoples heads EVEN AFTER THEYRE ALL DEAD gah) and ooooh I’m not ready for this

gffa:

–Ahsoka

“I restored them,” Ahsoka replied.  “I freed them.  The red crystals were corrupted by the dark side when those who wielded them bent them to their will. They call it making the crystal bleed.  That’s why the blade is red.”

I was talking with @evaceratops​ about how
– the Jedi are psychics,
– the nature of kyber crystals
– and how the thoughts they wield the blade with become part of it.

That perhaps this is why Ahsoka left her sabers behind, that those crystals carried every thought and action she’d had as a Jedi, that she could not separate herself from that life and move into her new one when she would be carrying all of that around with her.

This weapon is your life.

There are good memories in those crystals, so very many good memories still lingering in those crystals, but there are also bad memories.  And they are no longer her, she is setting out for a new life, she cannot take the old one with her.

She is lost, that’s what the entire Ahsoka novel is about, that she isn’t yet where she’s supposed to be.  Not until she finds the two crystals from the Inquisitor and knows they’re meant to be hers.

She held them in one hand, almost shaking as the familiarity of them coursed through her, while the other hand retrieved the half-finished hilts she carried with her.

Ahsoka has been collecting bits and bobs along the way, not knowing why, just that she needed to.  When she defeats the Inquisitor and the crystals call to her, suddenly she knows.  She has half-finished lightsaber hilts in her hands.

She hadn’t thought she’d ever replace her original green ones, and she still had to finish the handles, but these were all right.

She doesn’t quite recognize these crystals, but they’re certainly meant for her.

“These feel familiar,” Ahsoka said. “If I had to guess, I would say they were looted from the Jedi Temple itself.”

Later, she speaks with Bail and guesses that these were ones looted from the Jedi Temple, but she doesn’t know.  We don’t know what happened to her lightsabers or their crystals after she buried them with the dead clone that was meant to pass off as Rex after Order 66, but if kyber crystals are sentient and can use the Force, certainly it wouldn’t be hard for an Inquisitor-in-training to stumble over them and pick them up.

But, really, if they were hers, surely she would have felt everything she’d poured into them, right?  Not thinking about the extent the Inquisitor would have crushed everything of the Jedi out of those crystals.

But the crystals are half alive, almost sentient, they wouldn’t want to stay with a Sith.  They wouldn’t want to stay buried where they weren’t with the one they’d chosen.  They would find their way back to the one they wanted to be with, the one they were meant for.

They’re her life.

Just as Ahsoka was lost for awhile, so were her crystals.  But she finds her purpose again, finds her life again, and so do her crystals.