When Adora first left the Horde she told Catra she was leaving because the Horde was evil, did monstrous things to innocent people, and had been lying to them the whole time. And Catra responded, “what, you didn’t know?”.
And there’s so much to unpack there, but what really killed me was when I thought about why that was. Why was Catra so cynical when Adora bought the propaganda?
It’s because of how they were raised. Shadowweaver raised both of them abusively, but they got different flavors of abuse. Adora was the Golden Child and Catra was the Scapegoat. They were both abused, but Catra caught the brunt of the most violent abuse. She knew the Horde hurt innocent people because she was one of them.
And that puts a whole new twist on how angry Catra was when Adora wanted to leave. When Adora said “what the Horde is doing is wrong and we should leave because of it”, Catra’s response wasn’t really “you’re just learning the Horde hurts innocent people now?” it was, “it wasn’t enough to make you leave when they hurt me?”.
That’s why she’s so angry. From her perspective, Adora was willing to leave the Horde because of what they did to these random people they’d never met before. But she’d never offered to do the same for her.
Catra refused to go with Adora because, just by asking, she broke her heart.
Since Obi-Wan tells Padme that he saw a security holo of Anakin killing younglings, but the holo that we see him watch in the Temple is actually of Anakin killing a master (Cin Drallig) and two padawans, does that mean he sat there and watched every security holo from Operation Knightfall he could find, trying to work himself up to rationalizing killing Anakin to himself? And they just kept getting worse and worse until he finally got to the younglings and then he was like, “no, man, I can’t watch these anymore,” and went off to find Padme?
Knowing Obi-Wan, he probably did.
And with each one he watched, part of him was secretly hoping that he’d see something to indicate that Anakin was being coerced or, like, mind-controlled somehow, or anything to give him an excuse to believe Anakin hadn’t really gone to the dark side. At least he was hoping to see something that would explain why Anakin was doing it in a way Obi-Wan could maybe understand and use as leverage to talk Anakin down when they met. And then he finally got to the younglings recording and his hopes were dashed, because there’s no way to rationalize away that one.
This post now requires exorcism.
There are drunk scream-laughing women in the meeting room and i’m in so much pain im literally hiding under the desk playing music in both headphones trying to escape and i could definitely go kick them out but between them and the loud flirtatous guy who wouldn’t leave me alone last night im just hurting so much i’m actually crying and im nauseous and my balance is nonexistent i barely know which way is up and can they please just stop
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